I woke up to a severely throbbing headache, this morning.
I cannot adequately put to words, that which clouds my vision, but it feel really hazy.
‘Lucy’; Collins calls out to me
‘Are you awake? I missed you so much.’
I whisper; ‘My head aches, passionately.’
Reina opens the door, and walks into my room.
‘Baby girl, how are you?’
She gives me her typical, concerned look.
Reina is my best friend – in this part of the world I call ‘Hearth’. Collins was by far the best in the other part of my world, the one within me, the one Reina couldn’t see. The world which was yet, unnamed.
I would have been called an ogbanje, if I had been born in my village.
I, am no ogbanje.
Reina’s voice pulls me out of my thoughts.
‘Lucy? You don’t look like you slept well.’
To which I reply ‘Reina…my head aches.’
‘Oh…sorry, my pumpkin. Let me get you some tablets.’
I see myself to the bathroom.
Today was a Saturday, and I had a checklist.
It included making time out for Collins.
I loved Collins.
I loved him so hard, it hurt sometimes to think about him.
I could be walking, and thoughts of him would stop me in my tracks.
He was my life, I couldn’t pretend otherwise.
Work on ‘hearth’ could engulf me and it would seem like I had forgotten him, but how could I, really?
I am already in the bathroom and the tap isn’t running, but I have some water left in my big bowl. We call it ‘baff.’
The heat was unbearable, but I vow to enjoy the feel of every drop of this water on my skin.
As I get closer to the bottom of the baff, I begin to pour the water slowly.
Really, really slowly.
Slow enough to feel the trickles acutely as the force of gravity propelling it is reduced- to the degree to which the water is disappearing.
All this, is to establish that I am normal – I feel the changes in the weather, cold and heat affected me as much as it did, others.
Yet, I am painfully aware of my peculiarities.
That I cannot successfully introduce my friends on hearth to my friends in my other unnamed world, which houses the man I love.
Our near-telepathic love.
My other world is real but my mother says, that I carved it on the framework of my imagination.
She is a very intelligent woman with a Ph.D degree but on this, I disagree with her. She is wrong.
My friends on hearth choose to ignore the fact that sometimes, I talk to ‘beings that are not present’- in their own words.
Sometimes, I push my other world deep into my subconscious mind, just so I can have some sane tidbits on hearth.
However, one thing, is sure.
I am different.
For this, I would suffer.
ABOUT ABIOYE PEJU
Abioye Peju is a final year medical student of Bowen University, with a palpable passion for writing. She is an ardent believer that behind every medical case, is a story itching to be told. She writes at medicology101.blogspot.com